whats going on...

I mean really now...this is just getting crazy...and heartbreaking!

First its the reflux, and the colic associated with whatever hidden food allergy Cole has...and the issues with me taking a whole bunch of antibiotics...which has given him thrush not only in his mouth, but on his butt...and as i discovered today...also in OTHER sensitive diaper areas...

He is screaming while he pees. I change him right away of course...but he takes a while to calm down afterwords. I find if I really lather on the diaper rash cream it helps with the pain when he goes to the bathroom. But, there was another scare in this area today.

Cole has been eating just as much formula as he did breast milk...if not a little more today. But, from midnight until 4pm...he only had 3 wet diapers. I mean, hes the type of baby where as soon as you change his diaper he will pee just the tiniest bit. (and I only know what part by having the line change colors on the pampers...otherwise you wouldn't even know...lol).

But today..that was different. I didn't know if he could possibly be 'holding it' because it hurt in that area...or if something else was going on now. I called our doctor, and she said I should probably go into urgent care either tonight or tomorrow morning, because they could do a uranalisis and see if there was some type of infection. As SOON as I get off the phone...he pees. But, I decide to take him in anyways. He had a temp of 99.6 in the office...and while the doctor is in there pees again. She thinks the pain is just from the thrush that is already in the area....and not him actually GOING to the bathroom. Her explaination for the change in wet diapers was switching from the breast milk to the formula with no weaning inbetween.

If that IS the case...i really would have liked to hear this from the GI specialist before I did this. If I had known that...I wouldn't have started the antibiotics for another day so I could have had some pumped and in the fridge....The day I started them was really the first day in a long time I had no antibiotics left in my system...grabbing something frozen still has them in it.

So, its like a can't win here. At least when he got the blood in his diapers...he didn't seem to care. The gas he cared about...but this cry he has now is SOOO different. He is in so much pain from his diaper area, and his teeth coming in (wow...its getting sharp in there). The thrush in his mouth looks worse than it ever did before too.

And NOW he is losing his voice. I don't know if he has a sore throat from the thrush...or from an infection (I'm worried about the 99.6...but it went down to 97 with the infant tylenol...hes got a low normal temp just like his mama) or if its just from all of this intense crying he has done the last couple of days.

Its so hard to see him smiling and doing this cute little new laugh...and then BAM starts going to the bathroom and screaming...and when he does open his eyes while he is crying....he is looking at me like 'why won't you help me?!?!'

I'm trying hun...i'm trying...